Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Friend or Foe

Life is funny. Sometimes you think you have a friend and they go and stab you in the back. That has happened to me a lot. You could say that I'm pretty gun shy when making friends. Heck, if I'm being honest. I don't trust a whole lot of people. Like I can probably count them on one hand.

It occured to me today that sometimes you just have to take a chance. I'm taking chance on another friend again. Even though she has hurt me badly. I'm taking a chance.

Sometimes you just have to put your neck out there.
C

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Another Day

It's Tuesday. That's what the calendar tells me anyway.

I thought I would feel bad today, but I don't. J and I had a good talk last night, and we have plans for more talking. Just like anything else, this is only a temporary setback.

I really, really, REALLY wish my mom was home. She's out of town and it sucks. J mentioned that he wished she was home last night too and I lost it.

What is it about moms that make you just burst into tears. It happens to all three of us girls. We can be just holding it together by a thread, but we ARE holding it together, and someone mentions mom, or she calls, or we see her... and the dam is broken.

It's even more heartening knowing that he wants her here too.

I haven't started my actual to-do list for the day, but I did read through all of my work/severance paperwork and I have a lot of questions to ask HR.

My main goal today is to find some money somewhere so I'm not afraid to go grocery shopping.

C

Guilty or Innocent?

RULE 1You can only say Guilty or Innocent .

RULE 2You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone comments and asks.
Now, here's what you're supposed to do... and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into a post, delete my answers, and type in your answers. Then see what happens.
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Asked someone to marry you?
Innocent

Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

Ever told a lie?
Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have?
Guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Guilty

Kissed a picture?
Guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
Guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

Held a snake?
Guilty

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Guilty

Stolen from a store?
Innocent

Been fired from a job?
Innocent

Done something you currently regret?
Innocent

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Innocent

Kissed in the rain?
Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Guilty

Sang in the shower?
Innocent

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Guilty

Shaved your head?
Innocent

Slept with no clothes?
Guilty

Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

Been in a band?
Innocent

Shot a gun?
Innocent

Donated blood?
Innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
Guilty

Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

Still love someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

Have/ had a tattoo?
Innocent

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Innocent

Been too honest?
Guilty

Ruined a surprise?
Guilty

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can't walk afterwards?
Innocent

Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Guilty

Joined a pageant?
Guilty

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?Guilty

Dated Someone?
Guilty

Got totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Innocent

A total stranger treat you by paying your bus fare?
Innocent

Got totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

Monday, July 27, 2009

Sad Day

I'm really sad today. Losing my job has had the ultimate implication in my life.

Realized just this morning.

I can't provide for a child if I don't have a job.

I'm so very sad today.

C

Sunday, July 26, 2009

After a long time

I've decided to come back to blogger, although I've never really posted anything here, it has been a placeholder of sorts. I'm going to finally consolidate everything here. You know, I will have a lot of time on my hands I guess.

I was laid off last Tuesday 7/21/09. My dad's birthday.

This is going to be a long row to hoe.

Char

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Missing - from my spaces.live blog

Missing


Thursday, July 02, 2009, 7:01:18 AM

I've been missing here. I guess I wanted to give Shauna the time to be on the front page where she belongs. I still miss her terribly.



I started another blog - determined I was going to say the truth there. I never wrote another word there. Well I haven't yet anyway.



I do want to say this. I'm missing a friend today very much. I found this friend around two years ago today.... lost the friend a few months later, and I'm sorry I did. I miss you, friend.



Charlene